The time is getting closer and with each day I get a little more nervous. Not so much nervous about the move or the drive, but more nervous about meeting @Lorac. In my heart I know he loves me and nothing could change that, but... in the doubting pessimistic part of my brain I'm kinda scared. Thoughts of "what if..." keep circling in my head. I know that they're not realistic and won't come to pass. He loves me like no other and I know it. He's seen my bad and loves me in spite of it as I do him. Any difficulties we face we're stronger together. We're able to talk and work through things. I've never been able to or wanted to do that that with anyone else before.... ever.
He's worth it. The relationship is worth it. I feel like this is the ONE time in my life I've TRULY known contentment and love and happiness. He's made me feel like I'm important to not only him, but to the world. There's a reason for me. I have a purpose. I have value. He's helped me discover myself. He's helped me feel like the person I discovered is worth knowing. I love him so very very much. There's no real word to describe the deep intense feelings I have for @Lorac. He's the love of my life... and when that time ends he will be the love of my afterlife.